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Reflection on a Decade: 2010-2019

As another decade draws to a close, I’ve been reflecting back and seeing how my life has changed in that time frame. I was in my mid teens, and now I’m in my mid 20s, both of which are known for being unstable and uncertain. However, with the instability and uncertainty comes a sense of freedom and excitement. I didn’t see that until much later.

(In the ‘read more’ is a summary of the past decade with pictures)

Thankfully, through this decade, I’ve mostly been able to keep my support system in tact and found some semblance of stability again. How long it’ll last, I don’t know, but I do know that I’ll enjoy it while it lasts. I learnt how unpredictable life can be, so I’m not taking anything for granted anymore.

Bad: shattered a life long dream twice; destroyed illusions I had about my life, especially regarding my family; hit rock bottom twice, which was in part thanks to my own unrealistic expectations on what my life should be like; took a blow to my mental health

Good: kept in contact with my friends & family; made new friends I treasure; joined my a cappella group and the UK a cappella community; gone to therapy to cope with traumatic events and my anxiety; tried different jobs and figured out what I don’t want; kept writing no matter what

I’m ready for a new decade. A decade where I can take whatever time I need to become a more mature adult, including learning how to cook, how to drive, how to do taxes and what mortgages are, finding my own place and figuring out how to balance work with leisure. A decade where I will continue to keep in contact with my friends and family, and continue to make new friends. A decade where I can pick up new hobbies, educate myself on new topics, and keep writing no matter what.

I’ve let fear win for far too long. I want to go outside my comfort zone in this next decade, and try things regardless of whether I’m terrified or not. I want to enjoy life and not let my expectations get the better of me. I want to live as who I want to be, not who everyone else wants me to be.

Bring on 2020!

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Introduction

Hello.

I’m Laura Broadberry.

I started this blog a few years back with no real purpose other than I wanted to give it a go. However, when I started my creative writing course at university, I focused this blog on reading and writing. Because of this, I struggled to justify other posts on here. But as I struggled to keep my blog going, it fell into disarray and changed. I did a few fresh starts, but I couldn’t ever keep it going consistently again.

I have realised the pressure to post a weekly blog post is too much for me to handle, and going forward, I will aim for a monthly blog post. I have also realised the pressure to post purely reading and writing is tough, despite that being who I am, and perhaps who people have grown to know me online.

If I had named this a reading/writing specific URL, perhaps I would feel guilty for abandoning the one consistent part of who I am. However, since it is my name, I can post what I like, when I like. The pressure to post on a self-imposed schedule is dumb, especially when it sucks the fun out of blogging. I enjoy other things, and posting about them in more depth than social media allows is (perhaps) the way to go.

During this new decade, I’ll commit to a blog post per month, and I will blog what I like instead of constraining myself to one topic. But beyond that, I can’t guarantee anything with this blog. It could fall into disarray again, or worse, yet another fresh start (I’m sorry).

I hope you stick around for whatever this blog will become.

Goodbye (for now).