When I started Camp NaNoWriMo this month, I thought I’d get at least 25k written. I was realistic and knew 50k wouldn’t happen without the usual level of support NaNoWriMo has. However, life had other plans, as it so often does. I changed my word goal to 10k because I honestly thought I might reach it. Unfortunately, I haven’t reached that goal either. But hey, 6k words is still better than 0 words, so I’ll take it.
My Glee binging session didn’t happen, but re-finding the joy of reading has overtaken my priorities a bit, as has work. A friend suggested I try (YA) romance stories. I’ve always enjoyed romance stories, so I picked one I’d been drawn to and bought it. Honestly, I’m low-key addicted, craving to know what’ll happen next. This is such a good thing for me because I’ve been struggling to read in recent years, either losing the motivation to keep going or realising I don’t enjoy it for whatever reason and stopping.
You win some, you lose some. But at least I got some words written.
I always feel like life somehow knows I wanna do (Camp) NaNoWriMo and decides to throw me several curveballs, just to keep me on my toes. Unfortunately, what that ends up doing is hitting me mentally and forcing me to stop writing for a few days. Additionally, I always have plans, so trying to write around those plans can be a struggle.
However, this month in particular has been tough. I’m still trying to be in a healthy mindset but I’m not there yet. Maybe in a week or two, depending entirely how work goes.
I still wanna write this story, but I don’t know how much I’ll get written in this allotted time. My life is a mess right now and fixing it is a struggle when some of it is difficult to fix and others of it is a mindset issue.
Hopefully, I can at least reach 10k by the end of the month. If I could reach that, I might feel slightly better. But I have rediscovered Glee and I fear a binge session might be on the horizon. Hopefully, I can push that aside and do some actual writing.
I have spent so many years debating what story to tell and proceeding to try to tell the story only to start again. And again. And again. Usually, it’s a fantasy story. I just can’t seem to find the right character to carry the narrative in its entirety. For a while, I did take a little break from writing fantasy and focus on this band story I started years ago and never went back to. However, as I was plotting, I struggled to make the plot captivating enough and have a strong story arc.
Which is why I have now combined the two ideas.
In the past, I’d incorporated the band into my fantasy stories as secondary characters. However, I always found they wanted to tell the story and become primary characters. Or at least, one particular character did. So, I finally let him lead the story and drag along the other three. He has a very distinctive personality and it’s great for helping carry a narrative.
This particular story is bringing four band members into a fantasy setting. I’m using ideas I’ve used in other stories in this story, including an idea from a literal dream I had. Hopefully, with this particular combination, I’ll be able to write to the end of a first draft.
Here’s to Camp NaNoWriMo and whatever else it brings!
Apologies for my long, unexpected absence. A lot has happened in the past few months, and it was never my intention to let my blog fall to the wayside. However, while I acknowledge this blog is still a writing blog, I can’t deny that I struggle to keep it strictly about writing when I’ve been writing sporadically at best in recent months.
I like blogging. I wouldn’t keep coming back to it if I didn’t. But trying to keep a blog going constantly is a struggle, especially when your life is a giant mess. My life, a bit like this blog, has been through several fresh starts, but none have stuck… yet. Writing has been the only constant on both this blog and in my life. But committing to one topic? And posting about it weekly? That’s tough.
I’m planning on participating in Camp NaNoWriMo in July, so for now, I have at least one blog post planned. Making a blog post about my weekly word count might not happen since I never feel like I have much to say about it. But talking about how the project is going before, during and after might be a good blog post to do.
However, beyond July, I might resort to a monthly blog post, but whether it’ll be sporadic or not depends what’s going on in my life. Additionally, I made a conscious decision this year to live in the moment more. I spent much of last year taking photos, obsessed with taking the ‘perfect’ picture to post onto Instagram (or for GuruShots). I grew tired of taking photos, then choosing the ‘perfect’ pictures and uploading them to my photography Instagram account, or doing the same with concerts and holidays onto my personal Instagram account. I had the realisation that nobody really cares about my holidays as much as I do, and even though I’m supporting musicians by posting them on Instagram, most the big concerts I went to didn’t need support. They’ve got millions of fans, so they won’t even see my post. What is the point? Whereas with a cappella groups, it’s important to support them since it’s a very niche genre to support and they appreciate any support they get.
Having this realisation has helped me live in the moment more. I’m not living through a lens or searching for that ‘perfect’ photo and waiting to take the picture… mostly. It’s a working progress. I’m seeing the world for what it is and not feeling obligated to post about it. Although, that being said, living in the moment is difficult when your life is a giant mess that doesn’t have much stability, and the world is in a bleak state right now, so seeing the world for what it is is quite difficult at times.
When you first begin blogging, most tips suggest writing about a topic you know about. Hence why I always wrote about writing. However, there is more to me than just writing. I know about history. I know about travelling. I know about heritage. I know about family. I know about a host of topics. Sure, I won’t be an expert in most topics, even the ones I’m familiar with, but writing about them might be fun. Or writing about topics I’m interested in exploring more could be fun.
What I’m saying is, life is unpredictable. It hardly ever goes to plan, throwing you curveballs to learn from, whether good or bad. This blog has definitely never gone to plan. I keep promising to update weekly, then it falls to the wayside and I start again. I’m honestly surprised I still have people following this blog. But if my writing is unpredictable, as is my life, why should I constrain myself to one topic?
So, as of this moment, this blog will become a monthly blog post about whatever I want it to be. And if I don’t post in several months? What does it matter? It’s my blog after all.
Another year entering the New Year feeling lethargic.
One year, I will enter the New Year not feeling like shit.
2018 has been a great year, but since it’s a New Years post, the time for reflection has past. It’s time to face forward. Since I did a lot of healing mentally and emotionally, I am more prepared for what life throws at me. However, just because I healed myself doesn’t mean my mental health won’t flare up. That’s okay, so long as I can handle it when it does happen.
Every year, I make resolutions, as does everyone. Keeping them has been a success, but that’s only because I’ve kept them purposefully vague. Even then, I’ve failed in a few aspects. This year, I’m changing it somewhat. Instead of resolutions, I’ll do my goals for the year because goals are more achievable and can continue beyond a year.
I want to continue to write daily if I can. But should life get in the way, weekly is doable. I preferably wanna get several drafts done and hopefully a final draft of my WIP. We’ll see where we go from there.
I want to update this blog weekly again. I’m aiming to post on a Saturday evening again and focus on writing. If there’s any area of writing you’d like advice about, comment below. I might occasionally post personal things too.
I want to write writing prompts on my Tumblr blog and images of my writing bullet journal on my writing Instagram. Those are more side projects though and should life require me to give up any writing projects, they would be the first to go.
I need to keep looking after myself mentally and emotionally. Figure out how to handle stressful situations that don’t involve me crying or burning out. Also, figure out how to handle my anxiety in said stressful situations. I can handle my anxiety on a day to day basis, but I’m so shit at dealing with it in very stressful situations.
I need to figure out what I’m doing with my life, which any twenty-something will tell you is easier said than done. I’m hopefully changing careers, but that all depends what happens in the next month. If my plan doesn’t go to plan, I’ll need to get another digital marketing job or else try a different sector/industry for a while. Either way, that’s a main priority for this year.
Conversely, I need to move out again. But I can only do so if I have a permanent job and enough money to pay for rent and bills. As much as I’m reaping the benefits of living at home, I can’t stay here forever and I’m ready for the adventure that is moving out (again).
I want to learn how to drive this year. I’ve never felt the need to drive before this year, but moving away from home with lots of stuff is far easier to move in a car than on a train. Plus, it’s a useful skill to have.
I want to see more musicians live, depending who is performing live and how much money I have. I also want to see more musical theatre, including Hamilton and Dear Evan Hansen (when it comes to the West End). I definitely want to go back to Edinburgh Fringe, but I’ll go for longer and see more.
I want to travel, which seems like it’ll happen. Every year, I go on holiday with mum to somewhere new, and this year looks like it’ll be Canada (yas!). I’d also like to go to Disneyland since I’ve never been. At 24 years old, that just won’t do. I’m definitely returning to Ireland to see family, but when is entirely up to me and my family.
I can’t wait to see what 2019 has in store me and I hope 2019 is a good year for you.
2018 has mostly been a great year for me, but as with anything in life, there were definite downsides that nearly drove me to a bad headspace. I don’t want to ignore the negative parts because it makes the positive parts all the better, so I’ll start with the negative and end with the positive.
Since this got long, I’ve put it under a read more.
I have been taking a well deserved writing break, which you’d think would mean I’d crack open a book or two, but no. The main reason being I was trying to balance completing my apprenticeship, trying to complete work tasks, buying Christmas presents and meeting loved ones whilst also falling very ill the week before Christmas and desperately trying to recover. Oh, and celebrating my birthday (and three other family members’ birthdays).
December is always hectic for me. Every year.
But I have a plan for next year and several goals to achieve. Hopefully, this should be the most productive year of my life, and perhaps even the year I finally learn life skills. I’ll be honest, even I’m worried about my lack of life skills at 24 years old.
From January, I will be making weekly blog posts again. I have a few ideas for what I want to write about, but if you have any writing posts you’d like to read from me, please let me know in the comments.